Citi & Dean

Its been 4 days since Aidilfitri.  I have been quite tied up at work, as usual. Org sibuk raya ako sibuk bekerja.. oh watever~ cant wait for November to come & I will take a break from office! Pls wake me up when October ends! Ergghhh…

1^st day of Syawal

Its amazing that I DID NOT SHED ANY TEARS during the ‘maaf2an’ session.*im so prone to melalak during this maaf2an session.* I controlled my emotions hor, I tried not to cry at all. *kang cair make up mak nyah!* hahahhah.. No lah, maybe I have cried my heart out loud on the eve of hari raya after my performing my isyak & while I reciting the takbir alone in my room. Syahdu sungguh syahdu… terkenangkan segala kehilafanku & kedaifanku.  At the same time, I so badly+terribly+horribly missed my late maternal grandparents. Our hari raya has never been the same since they were not around… Besides that, I feel so bersyukur tidak terhingga ke hadrat Illahi kerana mengkurniakan diri ini sebuah anugerah iaitu diperkenankan jodoh bersama seorg insan yg sungguh teristimewa, i.e. my darling fiance. Can’t thank ALLAH enuff! Alhamdullilah.. Syurkran ya ALLAH!

But nontheless, I am so glad that I am given the precious oppurtunity to celebrate Aidilfitri with my loved ones & pple who matters most to me!

My family & I went to the elders houses, like the years before. We went to mummy’s 2 elder sister-in-laws' hses at Bedok & Tampines respectively. Since we were at Tampines area, we dropped by Fiance’s house.  We met his elder brother’s family there. Alah2 comel nya anak sedara dia si Sumayah (10mths old) berbaju kurung.. geramzz.. tapi dia tatot org dah~ haizz.. lom sempat pegang dia dah terpekik dah.. anjat gerl2! Hehehhe.. oopss.. I really wanted to knock my head, becoz my cam batt went flattt without me knowing it! Darn!! There goes my 1^st Syawal pics.. this year no pics.. sob*sob*.. Anyways, together with Fiance, we went to visit my paternal grandma at my uncle’s hse in Sembawang.  We met ayah there as well.  

After that, Fiance & I went back to Tampines to fetch his mum to go to his grandma’s hse at St George’s Road. Luckily for us, his cuzzin drove us there.  It was also my 1^st time meeting some of his ‘long lost’ cuzzins.  Oklah even tho ade jugak lah ‘babak2’ yg kurang senang di hati, everything went smoothly. We didn’t stay long as we both were working the following day. His cuzzin who sent us there were so nice & kind to fetch us home.

2^nd Syawal

I was back to work. I had things to clear. After work, I went back straight home. I was really feeling tired to the max!. Also I wasn’t feeling well, felt feverish. Afer dinner, I took some medicine and had an early night.

3^rd Syawal

Went to work as usual. Actually thought of seeing a doc to get an MC so that i can rest, but on account that there’ll be no one in the office as 1 of my colligs was on 2 days MC, I dragged myself to work. Anyways, I felt better after taking the medicine the night before. I took time off and left office at 330pm. Fiance took a day off as he needed to run some errands.  I met Fiance at Tampines and we went to my fren’s Naza’s house (same blk as Fiance) for hari raya & also to hand her personally my wedding invite.. *special kan Naza* After that, we went back to Fiance’s house for maghrib and we went to Tampines Mall to buy some stuffs. However, we found nothing that fancied us, so we went for dinner at Long John’s Silver instead.  After that we both headed for home.

4^th Syawal

Here I am in the office doing work! Errghhh… after this going for Staff Dinner at NTU.

Both me & Fiance have only this weekend to jln2 for hari raya. After that we are to go back home after work, no more jln2 & meeting up. Except for some days when we really got to meet up to settle some wedding stuffs!

Yey²! Besok raya!!! Heheheh.. well look, the reason im so looking forward to this Syawal is because on this day that I can eat those ‘traditional’ dishes, like ketupat, lontong, lemang, lepat & not to mention the other side dishes like daging rendang, ayam kurma, lauk lodeh, sambal goreng, seronding ( I tell u, I soooo LOVE to the max my mum’s seronding, she made the BESTEST seronding hokey!), sambal tumis udang.. yumm..yummm…. cant wait..cant wait!!! Hehhehe..

Ok I had a rather happy+blessed weekend.. alhamdullilah.. let me recaps yah.. :

Friday

After work, met darling fiance at geylang as I wanted to buy my tudung for my baju kebaya.. (kalo tak, tak kosa ako nak pi geylang..) Nyways, we were joined by Noorul & hub (Iskandar).  As the eatery places are fully booked by the time we reached there, we just bought some finger picking food and broke our fast at Darul Arqam. After we had our filled, we then walked ard the bazaar. We got my tudung at the bazaar near the Singapore Post and then bought some other stuff. Fiance & Iskandar bought this ‘pedang with ukiran ayat²’ @ one of the shops there. We didn’t stay long at the bazaar as we felt that we have bought what we wanted (good, this at least made us save some monies! heheh) and we then headed for home…

Saturday:

I wasn’t feeling too well, wanted to clear my room 100% but too bad, I only cleaned about 30%.  Adik did her annually task each time Syawal comes, i.e. she cleaned and decorated the hse.. I was taking a long break as my head was spinning.. it must be due to the weather… mummy asked me to batalkan puasa if I cannot tahan, but on account that the fasting days are just few more days I preservered and rested the whole day. Fiance dropped by my hse for breaking fast as he did some aircon servicing at his friend’s plc in Jurong.  We broke fast together.  At the same time, I told him to bring back the remaining of kuihs that we made for him & his mum.  After isyak, he took his leave.  I had an early night after I took some medicine.

Sunday:

Its my BIRTHDAY!!! Hehehhe… I turned 24 years old on Sunday. Alhamdullilah… Semoga Allah swt panjangkan umurku, murahkan rezkiku, perkenankan segala doa2 ku & agar aku menjadi isteri yg soalihah & taat pada suamiku kelak. Amin.. I thank my lovlies friends who wished me via SMSes and also emails. Terharu daku! Heheh..

I did a super spring cleaning to my room. I cleaned my room from 10am to 5pm! Can imagine that? I have few BIG plastics bags of rubbish thrown away! Hahha… dok terpikiak kejap mane lah dtg sampah² tuh eh? Hehehhe… sendiri tanya, sendiri jwb! Muahhahaha..

After I finished cleaning my room, I washed up and performed my Asar. My besties, Sue & family & Liza & family not forgetting my darling fiance were breaking fast at my hse on my birthday! Hehhehe.. Mummy cooked Mee Bandung & Fried Macaroni and some other side dishes. Sue bought some kuihs (buat susah jer!) heheh.. As usual, Liza, the ‘star karat’.. ekkeke.. org dah buka baru member sampai, ape dah! hahha.. but its ok, as long as we got to sit on 1 table together and enjoyed our meal.  
We had of coz great time together.. I really feel blessed to being able to break fast with my loved ones on this birthday. Nothing more I can ask for, just to be with my loved ones.  Except that my ayah was not able to buka with us, I feel very² contented. Thank you ALLAH!

Anyways, we had loads of fun together, we saw how much both Sufi (sue’s boy) & Muqri (Liza’s boy) grown up. (cepat eh budak² ni membesar! Hahah) Also, Sue is due soon.. saw her tummy bery² BIG sey.. she said she feels that she could gv birth anytime now! Nonetheless, we all prayed the BEST for her, insyaAllah may she has a very² smooth delivery.. hehhe.. also SUE, pls tell your baby to wait until Auntie Siti’s wedding is over, then he comes out eh? Hehehhe…
We had some photo taking sessions too. Check it out at the photo section yah.. ooops.. for private viewing only….

I am working half day today, errgghh.. so the takde mood nak keje. Cukup time, kul 1pm ku pon blah, gotto run some errands, then going to my collig’s plc to visit her & her newborn baby girl, and to collect the bridal bedsheet that she’s lending me. Thanks dear! See you later!!

Ok lah, before I end this entry, I would like to wish ALL my muslims friends,(irregardless whether I know you personally or not).. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin. Semoga Syawal kali ini memberi seribu kemanisan and kebahgiaan di samping org2 yg tersayang, insyaAllah.

Till then, byee!!!

My mummy, sis & I have eventually accomplished our baking mission! Alhamdullilah. As mentioned, only 4 types of kuih raya were baked. As for kuih makmur, mummy has changed her mind, she did not order from her fren, instead she was thinking since we are not any BIG fan of itu kuih makmur, she tak order pon bagus, kang nanti terbuang gitu ajerr.. hehehhe..  Also there’ll be no rempeyek nor tumpi for raya this year, mummyku dah gantung kuali! Kekekke , no lah she has little time to do it, insyaAllah she will do the rempeyek when it draws nearer to my wedding, utk org2 rewang katanyer.. haizz.. watever lah..~

Anyways, here are the recaps of my weekend:

Friday

I took half day to collect my wedding invitation cards from my supplier.  Alhamdullilah, finally both my cards & Fiance’s cards are ready (after so much hassles with the printer, glad that all our cards are nicely printed! (they are ALL on the way to the recipients ).  I got my bro, Ayie to follow me to collect the cards coz I takdak larat nak pikul itu 1200 pcs of cards + our ‘shell gubahans’. We sent those things back to my home first. Upon reaching home, I rested for abit, coz ini kepala ade pusing dah..

Ard 4.30pm me, my bro & our part-time maid (adik got a part time maid for us), went to geylang to meet Fiance & mummy there to break our fast and to do some shopping.  We reached geylang ard 5.45pm. Initially wanted to break fast at Arnolds but by the time we reached there, it’s fully booked for buka and we gotto wait for 2^nd batch which will only be like 7.45pm onwards? Duh!!! we just booked it initially. But as we walked ard the city plaza while waiting for mummy & Fiance, we passed by Es Teler, since its not so crowded, so we just book a table there, alhamdulliah we got ourselves a table, placed initial order first, calling2 mummy & fiance asking wat they wanted, then we ordered.

Fiance called me while on the way saying that he saw someone and family whom we are not keen to meet! He said he was only behind them! Lerrr… so I said, ‘buat dunno lah’.. but mmg dah takdir, tat someone & family also broke their fast @ Es Teler dah… haizz.. but we just buat donno jer,.. pple may say, since it’s a holy month y not forgive and forget, well.. well… well, its not too easy to forgive BUT to forget NOT ANY EASY, tat someone has caused a lot of damages & pains to me & my family, this time round, lu buat hal lu, gua buat hal gua ok!

So back to breaking fast at Es Teler, mummy arrived shortly after maghrib, the food was  so-so lah, alhamdullilah we were all FULL. After that, we went to 2^nd chance to buy fiance’s & ayie’s baju kurungs. Fiance only fancies 2^nd change baju kurungs, apart from its cheap (coz he said bila masa lah nk pakai baju kurung if not for raya, beli mahal2, kang tak terpakai, sayang. He learnt his lessons when we 1^st celebrated our 1^st hari raya 2 yrs back, we tailored made our both bajus at $300+ each, end up itu both bajus we rarely put on and nicely hanging in the cupboard..)pfffttt… ahh also, he dragged to buy any baju kurung at any bazaar, coz he soo the serik last yr, bought at 1 of the shops in the bazaar, itu baju punya jahitan so the hancuss lah.. so he said, NO MORE buying bajus frm bazaar.. ok lah.. tats y he sticked to buying the baju in 2^nd chance… gitu lah citer nyer panjang eh.. kekekekek..

So after we jln punya jln, mummy pong beli carpet dah… then fiance was rushing for time to go back to my hse to collect his cards. Me, fiance & Ayie went home first by cab and brght back watever stuffs that we purchased earlier, leaving mummy & our part time maid to wait for Adik (who was having her part time lessons at tampines) at the bazaar.

We reached home at about 9.30pm, fiance collected his stuffs and he went home after that. Pity him, penat2 frm work, pi geylang then kene angkutz barang2 balik plaks. Takpe dear eh, sacrifise sket.. hehehhe…

So after washing up, I started to write the names on the invitation cards. Wah seh! So excited lah..  As I was writing the names, I kept asking myself, “is this for reaalll??!!” hehehhe.. so I guess the wedding jitters have set in slowly.. yeah im feeling it!!! Hmmmm..

Saturday:

I didn’t go out. Together with mummy we did the kuih tart production. Aduh mcm nak patah ini pinggang buat 2kg of kuih tarts! (heh, baru 2KG eh, lom berkilo2..heheh..) Tapi I sukerr! Walaupon ade sket leceh buat ini kuih, I still loving it dahh! Hahahha..

Mummy cooked Soto Ayam for buka, yumm yumm, niceeee! After isyak, and after baking of kuih tart ended, I continued writing the names of my guests on the wedding cards, until 10pm, I so the tak tahan, my pinggang so the sakit, got the part time maid to apply some minyak panas onto my back & she helped to massage my back. Ahhh.. wat a relief, I felt super sleepy plak after that! Kekekkeke.. I slowly fell to sleep, without having a chance to talk to fiance that night. Heh.

Sunday:

Woke up at 8am after subuh.  Fiance, Adik, Ayie, me & Adik’s bf have planned to go to visit the graveyards. Adik’s bf drove us there. We went to arwah atuk’s grave (my mum’s side) first. We helped to clean up the grave, recited doas and then proceeded to fiance’s arwah’s dad’s grave. It was so nearby to my arwah atuk’s. Both of them departed on the same year (1989) with a difference of 5 months only. I feel for Fiance. I looked at his eyes, I know he’s missing his arwah dad so much. He’s so good at hiding his emotions. He tried to buat lawak, he said, “pak, org bwk bakal menantu bapak yg nakal ni. Kita akan langsung bulan depan pak…” Then he recited some doas, we follow suit.

I just knew it he’s trying to hide his emotions, esp, with Adik’s bf, Adik & Ayie ard. But he cannot hide it from me, i understand him too well. I held his hand & looked at him.  He just looked at me and gv me a weak smile.  We tot of going to my arwah atuk ayah (dad’s father) grave, but we didn’t know the way to get there, also there were too many pple yesterday.  We then headed to the new cemetery to my arwah nenek’s & Adik’s bf’s mum’s graves.

I had a very difficult time controlling my emotions at my arwah nenek’s grave. After we cleaned her grave, after we taburkan bunga & siram air, I sat dwn by the side & recited some doas. As I recited the doas, my tears just kept on falling dwn like running tap… suddenly I felt so empty, suddenly I longed for her presence, suddenly I felt that its hard for me to let go, even tho its been 4 years she left us, I just cdnt contain my feelings esp. when my wedding is nearer, I wish she wd be there and be happy for me. But deep inside me I know it wd be so impossible for her to witness my wedding as she’s no longer around. All I can do is to pray non endlessly, semoga arwah tenang di sisi Allah & diletakkan di antara org2 yg beriman.Amin.

Fiance saw how I cried. He tried to crack some jokes, but sorry dear, no matter how much you tried to make me laugh, I simply cdnt help but to feel the lost deep in me. Before I cried even further, we decided to go to Adik’s bf’s arwah mum’s grave, which is quite nearby.  Again, we cleaned up the grave, taburkan bunga & siramkan air. We recited doas. After a short while, we left the cemetery and headed to collect my curtains at Jurong West.

From jurong west, we went to jurong east. Fiance wanted to drop some of his wedding invites to his relatives there.  We then went to St. Georges Rd, fiance’s aunt’s hse to send the rest of the wedding invites there, since his aunt has a looong list of his sedara mara.

We headed for home soon after that. 

When we reached home, all of us washed up. Mummy was in the midst of doing the chocolate cookies, with the help of our part time maid.  We tot of watching DVDs together, but in the end, ALL flattttt dah. hahahha.. I slept thru out the afternoon as I had migraine (must be due to the weather) .  I woke up at 3+pm only to find that my ayah dropped by to collect the invitation cards for his side.  In the end, smua org bangun! Kekekek.. mummy ckp, rmh dah mcm ‘child care’ dah.. kekkekeke.. Anyways, I continued writng the guests’ names onto the cards. 

Mummy went to JB to buy some kerepeks2 with step dad. Ayah went home shortly after that. I got ready as both me & fiance had an iftar gathering with my frens at Pizza hut, Jurong Point.  Adik had plans with her bf to break fast outside. Only left Ayie and the part time maid to break fast at home.

Me & Fiance met my friends for iftar. (Its an annual thingy for me & my internet friends, alhamdullilah, this is our 4^th yr hvng iftar together..) We had a nice & great time together. After breaking fast, we lepaks at the Mc Café and I distributed my cards to them. We left Mc Café at 9+pm. Fiance sent me home and he too headed for home after that.

Hmmm.. left to1 more week to hari raya. Not really keen tho to celebrate hari raya, but still I welcome the mth of Syawal with an open heart .. I am feeling sad as Ramadhan is leaving us, as I deeply feel that I have not done enuff!

I would need to cancel some of the iftar plans with some friends whom I have initiated to. This is because since Raya is coming, I have other commitments at home. I would like to sincerely apologise to you all should I have to cancel the iftar plans now. I will nontheless post my wedding invites to you all yah.

All rite then, till the next entry!

Yeaps, my mum, sis & I have started our ‘kuih productions’ last Saturday. Since we are not really ‘celebrating’ hari raya this year due to my upcoming wedding, we decided to only bake 4 types of kuih raya. They are namely; Kuih tart (kuih WAJIB), biskut gajus, cornflakes cookies & chocolate cookies. That’s all. My mummy will buy kuih makmur from her fren, I told her, if she want to do itu kuih makmur, sorry I dun think I can be much help, coz I takdak suka buat itu kuih! Hehehhe..

So let me recaps my beautiful weekend: -

Saturday

Didn’t go out, the baking production started. We started off with biskut gajus, took almost ½ day to do the 1.5kg 'adunan'. I made for my MIL2b as well. It’s been a routine since I knew my beloved hubby2b. That day, my sis’s bf & my fiance together with his mum broke their fast at my hse. Mummy cooked mee laksa kuah (yummy!), jemput2 pisang, adik bght murtabak, fiance bought chicken rice. Alhamdullilah, we had quite a spread.  We had some family bonding session after maghrib, had some discussions, and after isyak adik & her bf went to geylang bazaar, whereas fiance & his mum took their leave. I packed some food and asked him to bring back his 1^st bottle of kuih raya which I had made earlier on.

I feel very happy and blessed. Thank you Allah for this nikmat. Syukran.

Sunday:

Mummy & adik baked cornflakes cookies while I went out to meet fiance at Tampines. We wanted to go to the The Premiere show flat, but to our disappointment, there were too many pple queing, the que was so long ok, also the weather was scorching hot!  We aborted the idea and went to Orchard instead. Anyways, we are not really rushing to buy a hse, insyaAllah maybe sometime next year, then we will start sourcing for a re-sale flat nearby the Tampines neighbourhood.  
Well, fiance has got to run some errands and then, he gave me a pleasant surprise! He brought me to buy the wedding ring!!! Sweetness! Initially we plan to buy the ring together with his mum at joo chiat complex, as much as I wanted white gold for my wedding ring, his mum insisted me to buy gold instead. I was quite sad at first, but fiance was great! He managed to talk to his mum and she gave him the ‘green light’ to buy me the white gold ring, according to my preference! Ahh.. I so love him lah.. ehehehe.. so we browsed for the ring tat attracted me & tadaaa! We got it!  I simply love it! Hehehe.. but got to alter the size, jari ako ni kan gedabak! Hahahhaa.. so while waiting for the ring to be altered, we went to watch movie. We went to watch World Trade Centre at Lido. We thought it was a niceee movie, but hampesss….. cett! We were quite irritated by few ‘real life’ scenes in the cinema, oh well, better not to talk about it. The movie ended just before maghrib. As soon as we left the theatre, we bought our food and broke our fast at the Mc’café open space.

Afer we had our filled, we went to collect my ring and fiance suggested to go to the Suria Raya Karnival, as he wanted to buy some calligraphy ayat2 painting (those ayat2 in chinese calligraphy). However, its no longer available, they only have limited ones without frame. Fiance tak nak pulak, so we tawaf itu bazaar, then we went on home.

I forsee that im getting busier during the weekends. My maid, Sri has gone home for good! Alhamdullilah, good lah she went home. Not that we don’t appreaciate her helping us ard with the house chores, etc. But we are more happier when she goes home, because I guess she may have missed her family so much as her work here has deteriorated so much and lots of unhappy & unpleasant incidents happen lately caused by her. *sigh* Nonetheless, we are glad we now can have our own privacy back.. hehehe.. Thus, both me & my sis has taken back our roles in doing the house hold chores…pfffttt…

I hint to fiance, “nak tak kita amik maid next year?” he stared at me cam nk terkluar his biji mata! Hahahhahah..well, for now neither my family nor I need any domestic helper at the present moment, but who noes years down the road.. hmmm..

So happy working pple & gosh! Its 2 more weeks b4 hari raya.. *gulps*

Sigh* the official announcement has been made. Although we have all anticipated the news & heard the rumours going around, I was hoping for some ‘miracles’ to happen, but to my utter most disappointment, NO MIRACLES is happening & that yeah the rumours were right!! Pfffttt..
Maybe there are some blessing in diguise behind the situation, well I don’t know, but I hope things will fall back into it places again as time passes by, at this present moment, I just need time to digest the reality and also now concentrate to accomplish watever tasks that has been assigned to me before I go for my leave.
I am goina miss my present boss when he stepped down end of this month. Wish him all the best & I hope to have more oppurtunity to work with him in future, insyaAllah.

Anyways, let me recap my weekends:

Sat:

I went out with mummy and ayie ard 11am to collect both my kebaya & mummy’s baju kurung which we have sent for tailored earlier. Actually I am not really keen in buying any clothes this year as I have few pcs which I rarely wear them for last year’s hari raya but since mummy has bought the cloth for me, so why not, just make a simple kebaya. After collecting our bajus, we went back home as we have an appointment with my caterer after zuhur. Fiance came by my hse after work as he wanted to follow to our caterer’s hse and we intended to go to NATAS fair later that evening.

After zuhur, all of us went to my caterer’s plc and met my ayah there. After the meet up, Fiance received call from his mum saying that she’s not feeling very well and she just got back from doctor. We cancelled our plan to NATAS fair and went back to his place instead. Before that, we dropped by Bedok and bought some food for iftar. I broke fast at his hse that evening. Had some chat with his mum and persuaded his mum to go to hospital if there’s a need to becoz she said that the doctor has earlier on said she has water retention at her feet and that she needs to undergo a minor operation if the water retention doesn’t subside. She has this pain at her legs whenever she walks...This has cause much alarm to my MIL2b, we assured her as long as she eats medicine promptly & avoid those food that she must avoid, insyaAllah she will be just fine.

Sun:

Both me & fiance went to the NATAS fair @ the expo with his mum. It was very crowded indeed. We went around and asked few of the travel agents booths there but we were quite disappointed as there are not much choices for us to our desired destination..ahhh before that now, its not me who is fickle minded hor, it’s the darling fiance!!! Hahahahha…  he changed his mind during the Natas fair & agreed on the destination which I wanted very much to go! Thank yous darling! However, we found nothing much interests us.. either the seats are fully booked OR the itinary just not to our favours! Errrghhh.. . (We discussed and we are getting my uncle in KL to help us to source for reasonable pacakges, if he cd get some reasonable pacakges frm there, then we will travel from KL to our destination. We are also now pulling strings from our frens who recommend us reliable travel agents to book for our hoenymoon. Hopefully final decision cd be made by end of this week as we need to book reaalll fassst...)

Ok back to sunday, so we left expo shortly after that and went on to bazaar @ geylang. We walked about and MIL2b bought some stuffs. We bumped into some frens there, had a little chit chat and then crossed over to Haig Rd and bought some food for our iftar. After buying food we took a cab together, sent fiance & his mum first and I then continued my journey home. Its’s such a scorching hot day, I had a minor migraine. When I reached home, got my maid to keep the food in the oven first while I took a rest.  I broke my fast with my maid only becoz my family has all went to JB to buy some stuffs for hari raya. After isyak, I went to sleep as I felt so tired and need more energy the next day in the office.

I had a long day in the office on Monday so much so I slept early on that night without having a chance to watch any TV programmes….

Yesterday, I went to break fast together with fiance, mummy & ayie @ tanjong pagar. Both fiance & I had to run some errands there & mummy & ayie acccompanied us. I am so glad that we have accomplished our ‘September task’ well.. phew~ alhamdullilah… now just waiting for November to come..

All right then, I will write when time permits, till then.. tada!!

If you noticed, i have put HE(s) in the title.. there are two HEs here...

1st is of my coz my darling fiance, he has made it, he has voted nonendlessly for HADY MIRZA which made HADY MIRZA the 2nd HE here... heheheheh.. congrats both Hady & my darling; thanks darling for voting for HADY, tak ku sangka he's so obsessed with HADY sejak dua tiga menjak nih.... nyways, we are very2 happy tat HADY got the title, well, he deserved it hor! hehehehhe..

Ahh well, its the 3rd Ramadhan.. sad to say, im not able to fast as yet, but i do hope i can maybe tmrw? insyaAllah... haizz.. awal Ramadhan dah kene masuk buku triple 5 (555) dahh... hmmm.. wat to do.. sabar & mudah2an esok ku leh posa..AMIN...

I have wanted very much to do something but i do not know why & what's holding me back. Its for good course nyways.. but i just do not have the courage to do it. I dunno why, mudah2an, di bulan yg penuh baraqah ini, Allah s.w.t. akan memudahkan lagik segala urusanku, Amin..

Till then, selamat berbuka to all mua frens out there!!!!

*sigh*  just rcved some official news that there will be changes goin on in the management level... hmmmm... i just hope that changes will be favour to staff here....

Sometimes it makes me think, whether changes is good or not.. hmmm.. but lets be realistic, in life we need CHANGES for a better future.. but then again, it may not be easy to adapt to the changes... watever it is, i will just tawaqqal for i believe rezki di tanganNYA...   

Im so captivated by this song, My Heart by Irwansyah & Acha Septriasa frm OST Heart...heard it on RIA yesterday afternoon & wahlahh.. my heart fell for it! Kekekek..  nice song… meaningful.. hmmm.. maybe can use this song for my wedding clips eh.. heh, need to discuss with mua videographer later..  Would love to catch the movie tho'... but gotto wait for the DVD lorrr....

Anyways, my weekend was an OK one.. managed to rest lorr.. here’s the recaps..

Fri:

Met fiance at woodlands, poor him gotto wait for me for an hour! Blame it on my clumsiness cum selenge-ness, I boarded this bus frm Boon Lay interchange all the way to Woodladnds Regional Interchange, on a tot tat I cd ‘kill time’ since I knocked off at 5pm whereas he knocked off at 5.30pm! Cett, I was caught in some traffic congestions! But its ok, he’s a very patient man.. hahahha.. Met him only at 730pm! Imagine ah dari 630pm member tunggu! Kekekke.. After tat, we took a cab & went to Suntec City (lengit sey dok dlm cab tuh, itu pakcik tak tau lah U-Turn brapa jauh just to reach Suntec!! Maybe it got to do with the road diversion lor, for the IMF thingy)  Fiance said, luckily he's not stationed there for this month....

Upon reaching Suntec, we went to buy some shirts for him, at his all time favaourite shop.. met up wif one his colligs there.. then had dinner at KFC (lama sey tak makan pat KFC sana, it went through some major renovations, nicee.. I loikkee!)...After that we both went home.

Sat:

I woke up super early at 4am, to accompany adik & mama to send adik’s bf off to airport.  We called for a cab at 5am and then set off to the airport. Met her bf & his family and waited patiently for him to check in. Adik was very affected tho’ since her bf is going away to India (for some work) for 3 weeks. Takpe dik, sabar k, just pray for his well being there & smoga selamat pergi & kembali, insyaAllah..amin. After he checked in, we then headed to the viewing mall to see his plane took off. After that, kita 3 beranak headed to pasar geylang for breakfast & mama did some marketing there. Reached home at about 10+am. I changed and went to sleep! Ahhh.. finally managed to catch up with some sleep! Kekekekek…. So I only woke up at ard 1+pm, did what I had to do and watched 2 hindi movies on TV3 & Central consercutively!I loiikeee!!!The rest of the day was spent watching tv and reading magazines… had a nice rest tho..

Sun:

I was supposed to do spring cleaning & paint my room. BUT had to postpone it till next week, because my uncle who’s supposed to drill my new curtain grills & fix my spot lights was not free and only available next Saturday. So that plan has to be postponed, obviously. Anyways, my bestie, Sue’s hubby & son dropped by my hse for abit, as Sue has gone for a massage next to my blk. After an hour or so, her hubby fetched her and she came by my hse too. We had a short chat before Sue excused herself as she wasn’t feeling comfortable with the minyak urut all over her..also her son was abit craky, sleepy liao.. so both me & Ayie sent Sue & family to the bus stop and we went to a shop to buy some stuffs.  We had a light lunch back at home, before I start cooking ayam masak merah.  Fiance called me asking me to get ready for his colleague’s dotter’s birthday dinner in 1 of the North Indian restaurant in Little India. So I did get ready and then met fiance up @ Little India. I would say the food was nice, its been a very long time since I last had North Indian cuisine. After the birthday girl had cut the cake, both of us excused ourselves and bought some chappati for his mum.  After which he sent me home.

On another hand, hmmmm.. fiance has highlighted to me on some issues, I have heard him, I feel for him, insyaAllah I told him, I am more than willing to go thru’ ‘it’ with him, because I want to be with him in times of ups & downs, for he’s been with me through it all.  Only then I can feel the sense of ‘relief’ in him. Dun worry darling, insyaAllah everything will turn out all right.  Dear, pls bear in mind, I want to share every moments of your life with you. InsyaAllah I believe as long as we have faith in Allah & ourselves, we are able to go thru’ it all. I love you sayang, always.

Both me & fiance will on leave this Friday! Yippiesss!!! Can’t wait for that day! Also I might take some time off on Thursday to prepare for Friday. Tralalalalalalalala……

Till then, hv a good week ahead!

My weekend was a tiring but enjoyable one! Here’s the recaps of mua weekend:

Friday

As usual, I went home straight frm work, took my transport and then alighted nearby the LRT station to top up my ez link. Then my hp rang, it’s darling fiance! He’s now attached at Sengkang Depot (for like a month) and wanted to meet me up for dinner at Causeway point (since he got straight bus from sengkang).. hmmm.. so unresistable to decline his “pelawaan”.. kekekke… so we both met up for dinner at causeway point! After we had our tummy filled, we went for window shopping at causeway point and then bought some food from the pasar malam near woodlands mrt station, after which we both headed for home.

Saturday

Both fiance & I had appointment.  We met at Tanjong Pagar mrt station & went for the appointment, we had a hell of great time! Hahahha.. he & his jokes & not forgotting urs truly pong kene sakat gak! pffftt… but im enjoying every single minutes with him lah! Hahah.. So after the appointment we both had lunch at Lau Pa Sat. Had our filled and then went back to my home for the ‘mini function’ …. By the time we reached my plc, my ayah & nenek were there already. Had some catching up with nenek & ayah. Im so glad to see nenek.. I miss her tho’ now that im only left with her… Soon after that, we were joined by my pak long & mak long & papa’s eldest sister & some other guests…the ‘mini function’ started after maghrib and everything settled by 8.45pm or so. We are all sungguh HAPPY for my dearest adik.. hehehe… insyaAllah hopefully everything will go smoothly and according to plans..Amin.. *I can’t wait for the day!!*

Sunday

As mentioned, went for a day trip cum High-Tea @ Mahkota Parade Hotel, Melacca with fiance & his mum in some “rombongan”.  In between, we went to few other destinations for some shopping. I didn’t buy much tho as main intention was to go for the High-Tea.  Likewise fiance & his mum. We had great time, even tho I had a not so-good time in the bus….ergghh.. don’t wish to talk abt it. But I am glad fiance was beside me thru out the journey. Also before we headed back to spore, we stopped by Ayer Hitam for some “last shopping session”.. Fiance’s mum bght the “bunga pahar” & the ready-made “bunga rampai for our wedding.  She forgot to ‘kirim’ my mummy when mummy went to Mini Kelantan last week. Oh I will not forget an ‘unforgettable’ event we encountered at 1 of the public toilet there.. ergghh… i do not wish to recall the event here.. so yucckss… (I guess you may roughly guess what I meant huh..heh) Anyways, I bght some kerepeks & dodol for mummy. We left for home sweet home via 2^nd link & were stucked in the jamm for 1 blardie hour! Lengit sak dok dlm bus!! Haizz.. nyways, alhamdullilah reached home at 11pm, just on time to catch siti nurhaliza’s sanding delayed telecast – im so utterly disppointed+bored.. blueks! Nothing much to watch, so off & went to sleeeeppp…

Will update more some other time.. tadaaa...  

I loike to hear this phrase ‘for the better lah kan’ when I tune in to RIA 897FM every morning by DJ RZ.. so cuteee… hehehhe.. 

Well, alhamdullilah im feeling so much better than the days before..ALHAMDULLILAH..Rahmat di hari Jumaat, penghulu segala hari & hari yg penuh baraqah, insyaAllah.. hey! Im bck to my usual self!
Watever has happened, im just goina let it pass. I do not want to think abt it anymore, enuff is enuff! But maybe to that particular person, its never goina be enuff! Well, im not going to stoop at her level, im just goina keep my mouth shut, ‘watch the show’ & take it as part & parcel of life.. at least it teach me to be a more stronger person. "Im stronger than yesterday!" - Britney Spears song - remember?

Lets put all the unhappy, sorrows, sadness aside. Weekend is here again! yay!  
Today is 1^st September..hmm…. how time flies.. we are in the 4^th quarter of 2006 liao.. im goina be uber busy this weekend.
Im meeting darling fiance for an appointment tomorrow, and also a mini function will be held in my hse tomorrow evening, after maghrib. InsyaAllah hope everything will turns out well. Ah yah, im goin for a short trip to Malacca on Sunday with fiance & his mum. So kind of fiance to bring me & his mum out of singapore just for the day to 'makan angin'.. -thank you darling! - If only Malacca is nearby Kuala Lipis, Pahang, I wd very much wana drop by Datin Siti's sanding there! kekekeke..

Right then, have a goody weekend peeps!

Yah, tat describe my mood at the present moment! Maybe hit by the Monday blues bug? But 1 thing for sure, I haven’t been feeling good after hearing some not-nice-cum-not-true-stories over the weekend. But still, my weekend was great!  Spent Sunday with darling fiance, went to attend a fren’s wedding and then visited his darling niece, sumayah, met our invitation cards' printer, then went on for an ice-cream treat by fiance & jln2.. ahhh.. I felt so contented, syukran!

Lautan yang berapi

Daratan yang berduri

Bagiku bukan musibah

Malahan hikmah berharga

Katalah apa saja

Yang jelik penuh dusta

Kau bebas mewarnai diriku

Di minda yang kelabu

Siapa diri ini

Tuhan yang memahami

Amarah dan kecewa

Hanyalah bara membakar jiwa

Sungguh pun ku terkilan

Terguris perasaan

Ku pilih berdiam diri

Tanpa dendam dihati

Mungkin betul kata mama, biar org buat kita, jgn kita buat org. Perbezaan antara org yg berpelajaran & berpendidikan adalah dari segi pemikiran & tutur katanya…

Watever it is, i prefer to remain silence.... let Allah deals with them.. but still.. im HURT…..PERIOD!

SAH! siti nurhaliza dah menjadi isteri kpd, Datuk K.. syukran! Debaran siti dah pon tamat... sbg peminat, me mendoakan smoga mahligai yg dibina berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat, seterusnya ke dlm syurga..amin...Semoga DK dpt menjadi suami yg baik pd siti... Selamat Pengantin Baru Siti & DK!!

At first, its kinda difficult to digest Siti's decision into marrying the man of her choice.. im sure everyone knows DK's status bla..bla..bla... but when i think abt it rationally...hey, its her life sey... up to her lah who she wants to marry... dah jodoh dorang per... kita pon tak tau ntah pasangan kita ni org suka tak suka, org cemuh ke tidak kan..mungkin depan kita, org "nampak happy" utk kita & pasangan kita, belakang kita?? wallahualam bisawab.. so to me..to each of his own... yg penting kita doakan yg terbaik utk org..mudah2an yg terbaik jugalah berlaku pd diri kita..insyaAllah....

I watched Siti's solemnization at home LIVE in the comfort of my own bedroom...hehehhe.. i m on MC today, went to doc for my migraine & bessttt... dpt mc so dpt lah ngk siti's live coverage...heheehe.. hmmm... so far my weekend passed by so the fassst sey... ahh yeah another weekend to look forward to... hehe..

Ok lah me wana rest, will update some other day yah.. ta da...

Ahh yes, I hv bn having super hectic week in the office for the last 2 weeks! Too many “last min” tasks & crazy datelines to meet, on top of that to have pple to “overlook” the datelines & having me to be accountable for tat! CET!!! Well, nothing great to talk abt wrk anyways, complain mcm mane pong, still keje kene habis kan perr! *sigh*

Ahh.. yeah, my flu so far has been subsiding.. syukran, but at times I do feel that my body is giving me 'signals' that “hey! u’ve over worked & too stressed up.. Slow dwn abit will ya!!” I wd then felt feverish & i quickly took my fever tablets & went to sleep! Alhamdullilah it wrked well for me... however im still hvng bits of flu tho’…

So now let me recaps my weekend: -

Sat: Me & mummy went for a complimentary spa session in 1 of the newly set up spa in tanjong pagar.. well, both me & mummy had great time.. Its been suchhaaa looong time since me & mummy had spent quality time (just the both of us!). So tat day, yah we both spent a great quality time together esp after rejuvenating ourselves & pampering ourselves in the spa! hehehe… Aft the spa session, we headed to joo chiat complex.. mummy wanted to buy some ubat.. Oh b4 tat we had lunch @ haig rd.... After buying the ubat, we both then went to Golden Landmark to plc an order for the "berkat budak2".. Thanks to my darling sister for sourcing the supplier and also sponsoring me the berkat! THANKS a million adik! Sunguh akak appreciate it very mucchhaa! mwahhss!!

So after tat me & mummy walked to Suntec city as mummy wanted to buy some groceries in Carrefour. I rang darling fiancé up since he’s wrkng afternoon shift tat day to meet up for a bit (I miss him lah! 1 week sey tak jumpa! Haahha) Oh well, he followed both mummy & I to shop for a bit in Carrefour. Shortly after mummy was done with her buying of the groceries, we parted ways with darling fiancé…he went bck to wrk & we both went on home…

Sun: I attended 1 of my ‘kursus rmh tangga’ fren, Aidah’s wedding in bukit batok.. Managed to meet up together with Rashedah & Mardiana! We had a blast of great time! Hahahha.. We had lottas catching upz....we took photo with the newly weds & also just the 3 of us at the bunga manggar! Hahaha (will upload the pics soon).. InsyaAllah we will be meeting up again end of this mth at another wedding, c u ladies reall soon yah!

Oh yah speaking of which, I had series of wedding, engagement & birthday bash invitations thru out the weekends this mth of Aug!! Next week, will be attending fiance’s cuzzin’s engagement, following week will be liza’s son’s 1^st besday bash (sat)& fiance’s collig’s wedding (sun) & the last week of august will be my other kursus rmh tangga fren, suzie’s wedding.. fuhhh… compact gillerrr my upcoming weekends!

Ooops, before that my application for both marriage & annual leave afer my wedding has been approved by mua Boss!!! Alhamdullilah! Yabedabedooooo!!! I loikkee! Hahhaha, dun ask me why, call me kiasu if u wish, Id rather be called kiasu now than mengigit jari after tat, coz iv heard tat 1 of my seniors will also be going on long leave in Nov (same period as my wedding lagik) & on top of that she’ll be the one who will be covering for me, so sblm dia apply, baik aku apply dulu…Not only tat, during my absence from office will be the peak period for my dept..
We’ll be hosting an International Conference & also our dept “Open house” will be held soon after the conference. Also, it falls for the examination period for this semester. *sigh* I really do not have the ‘1^st’ hand info abt this examination & dateline schedules when I 1^st plan for my wedding.. Anyways, we have just corporatised & generally all our semester+examination period follows closely to those in NUS.  I have explained my situation to my Boss, I am glad he accepted it with open heart & he’s so ever understanding. As for my senior collig yg “akan take long leave too on that period”, mintak maap jer ler, tkde niat nak “buih” dia, tapi I feel so unfair when she or in fact the other of my coligs know very well of my long leave plan, tup2 this nyonya nak potong jalan ako plak! Lu relax pong cantik nyonya! Ako nak gi cuti kahweng tau, bukan cuti main2!!! Hahhahaha..

Oh yeah, an important event is coming up soooon, reaaallll sooon.. insyaAllah will blog abt it later... Meanwhile, goood nitezzz to all! Mua dah nak sleep already!! taddaaa!

Fri:
My date with my bestie, Liza was great! Well, we always have great time/moments when we met once in a while (read: seldom). Despite our busy schedules, alhamdullilah we still made time for both of us. Best! Anyways, we didn’t lepakz at our ‘usual McD’, instead we went over to her hse as her mum has whipped Nasi Lemak for dinner, so kita ape lagik, makan lah! Hahaha.. After dinner, we then  had some ‘serious business discussion’ of coz with the ‘interuptions’  by our beloved Muqri, with his telatah..so cute lah this boy, dah besar pajang dah, nyways I njoys itu 'interuptions'.. hahha.. Well, we wrapped up our discussion at abt 10pm, we will meet again this coming weekend. *Kao jgn lambat eh girl* 

Sat:
I managed to swop my duty with a collig and went ahead with my facial appointment. Aftat that i met darling fiance for lunch and we headed for home since kita dua org dah penat & cuaca pong sungguh the hot.com! Upon reaching home, mummy & adik broke some news to me. Actually iv earlier anticipated it, but I told mummy it served as a TEST for us, we have to be strong & stay united to overcome this. I was indeed sad when I learnt about it, but I believe, if Allah has brought you to it, HE will guide you through it.. insyaAllah… May Allah give me & my family HIS guidance & show us HIS light to overcome this test, Amin Ya rabil’alamin..

Sun:
Woke up real early and went to work earlier than usual! Argghh!! Nothing nice to talk abt work, duty! Cett! But luckily the event ended earlier & I headed for home sweet home, ini kpala sudah tak boleh angkatz lagik, so the sakit.. lack of sleep? maybe.. So upon reaching home, I did wat I supposed to do & I straight away lie down on my comfy bed & went to my dreamlandzzzz…was damn exhausted! Woke up only when mahgrib drew mearer, habis lah kene bebel dgn mummy, coz maghrib2 tido… abih org penat aperrr..  After mahgrib,i waited for darling’s call, tak call2.. ish.. biasalah dak jumpa members tunang pon lupa! Ard 9+ baru he got home & called me..Duh! marah lah kita kan ! tapi skejap jer.. dah tuh kita dua org ok.. muahahha..  I made a bet with darling abt the Finals between France & Italy.. He took Italy & I took France…. Whoever lose will have to gv a treat in swensens!! Mari kita tgk sape yg kena! Muahahahha..

Mon:
I conceded defeat after France LOST!  No doubt i didn’t watch the match as it went on during the wee hours and when I was in my dreamlandzz.. so got to noe the details from my brother, he was my ‘kaypoter’ early in the morning.. Ok lah, belanja pong belanja lah, bukan selalu ako kalah! Im a good loser u noe.. blueks!Lagik pong Italy won thru penalty jerrr..cettt! Hahahaha.. but even tho France lose, ako ttp ade crush same itu Zidane! Kekekkeke…

Ok peeps, have a niceee working days ahead!! I am looking forward to my exciting weekend ahead, insyaAllah! Yippies!!!!!!

Whoa! Its July already lah! Phew~ time flies very fassst indeed! My weekend has been bagusss (splendid!) alhamdullilah.. Here’s the recaps:

Friday
After work, I met mummy at boon lay mrt station and we made our way to Bugis to meet my darling fiance then we headed to my service provider for my bridal outfits @ Arab St.  Alhamdullilah…we have chosen our wedding outfits.. gosh! I am all excited! Hehehe.. So all were chosen & decided… we then had dinner at zam-zam.. after tat darling fiance went back home whereas mummy & I shopped for a bit at Seiyu.  Aft we got what we wanted, (ini part kene ctrl babe, becoz the GSS are going on all around & ako ade rambang mata, kang habiss $$$ ako kerjakan! ) After that, we went to buy dinner for ayie & sri and headed for home.

Saturday
Went to attend my fren’s son’s besday bash @ downtown east. Sabrina fetched me at pasir ris mrt and we then headed for the besday bash.. I sungguh njoys myself tat day as I met up with the rest of the forummers..sungguh fun.com! It was babies day also, ramai yg dtg bwk babies dorang… I loiikee! Muahahha.. But too bad, I didnt brg ma digicam (terlupa plakz!) Also, I cdnt join them for another besday bash as I had to go to darling fiance’s hse to visit his mum who’s not been well & his grandma… over at his hse, his mum has prepared her speciality aka my all time faveret‘Roti Boyan’! yum yum… eventho I was already fulled, I still  makan abit kan.. kesian my MIL2b, sakit2 pon dia masak jugek utk bakal menantu dier ni.. hehehe.. his grandma too, sanggup tunggu ako datang baru lah nk kupas itu buah mangga & makan bersama ako! Ya rabbi..sungguh touch.com! hehehe…  I didn’t stay long tho (al maklum ako tinggal jauh noh...heheh). Ard 8+, I took my leave…

Sunday
It’s the DAY! Jeng..jeng..jeng…! Some of my frens have asked me, ‘wat day lah dey!’ ... it’s the day whereby my fiance’s family came over to meet up with my family and representatives to formalise & finalise our wedding! No doubt that among myself, my fiance & our parents, we have decided on the date, the visit was to determine on the details of the wedding itself, etc.  Phew~ I had a busy day yesterday.. I baked brownies and helped mummy to cook for the dinner.. Abang’s family came over after maghrib. I went thru’ this kinda visit during the ‘merisik/meminang’ time 2 years ago whereby our engagement date was fixed. That time I didn’t feel really nervous, but somehow yesterday, I do not know wat has got into me.. I felt nervous & the jitters.. heheheh.. Abang came with his mum, his 2^nd bro, his SIL & his SIL’s parents and not forgotting his 2 lovely nieces… Discussions started, everything about nikah, sanding, hantaran, mas kahwin have been discussed and decided, both families have reached to an agreement & mudah2an segala nyer berjalan dgn lancar & Allah swt memudahkan segala perancangan kita, insyaAllah..Amin..After fiance’s family and my representatives went home, left with my Pak Long’s family & my dad, we had more detailed discussion.. as a matter of fact, this will be my parents’ first time ‘terima menantu’.. so lottas other stuffs were discussed among us.. phew~ Anyways, both me & fiance are going for our ROMM registeration in due course.. (counting the days jugak nih... hehe)
I will announce some of the details when the time draws nearer, as for my dearest besties (sue & liza), korang dah tau kan, pls doa for me yah…insyaAllah we shall meet up one of these days yah, I miss u ladies lah!

I have so much other matters to look into for my wedding preps.. kaoo.. byk seh lom buat.. heheh.. tuh lah.. tk own sweet time somemore lah... hiakshiaks.. but insyaAllah will follow the flow and things will get done-ded.. Alhamdullilah i have strong support & backup from my beloved parents esp. my mummy.. i do not noe how wd i cope without the iron lady behind me! Uhuksss!!! Ok, tknk sentimentel lagik... we will be meeting our caterer cum decor guys tonite to decide the pattern & colour scheme for mua pelamin & decor, decide the no. of jemputans.. etc2... yeah.. im excited! hehehe.. as for darling's side.. almost smua dah settled! yah lah, like he said, "Me, being at the guy's side tak byk rewel, u jer lah, so particular abt tis & tat"... duh! sedap nyer member bobual gitu eh, of coz lah for his side, he has his mummy dearest, his SILs, his brothers & aunties to help him wherever possible & necessary.. for me, id rather do things on my own for certain things & for the other stuffs id rather have my 'reliable' & 'trusted' org2 kanan to do for me.. yeah, call me fussy, i just want the BEST for mua wedding.. who doesnt rites?

All rites, will update again when time permits.. ta daaa!!!